Seductive Success

14 Apr

I recently received an invitation to my first official speaking opportunity in a church…in my hometown of Santa Maria no less, with many of my friends and family present.  Immediately my fears and anxieties of being in front of a pulpit began to well up within me.  “Who am I to speak…Why me God? What if I crash and burn?” I sensed Him saying…“David you say that you trust me…here’s an opportunity for your actions to catch up with your prayers. Align your heart with mine. Your job is to show up…I will do the rest.” I believe God had called me out.  My faith was getting an exam.


So I showed up.  I shared my heart with these people.  I told stories about the wonders of God that I have seen these last 2 years…and the wonder of Him letting me participate in His Kingdom.  I expressed my longing of wanting to be a redemptive presence and agent of change wherever I go for Jesus Christ.  The hope was as I shared my journey of pursuing God and His mission for this world that people would be encouraged, they would be inspired, they would keep marching forward for Jesus in their own context. 


The affirmation I received from many people afterwards was warming and encouraging.  If I’m completely honest it became my identity…even if it was just for a couple hours.   For me, the taste of success in front of people is a seductive recipe for losing focus on the face of Jesus.  So I repent.  I repent for trading the voices I can tangibly hear, the things I can tangibly taste and see on this earth, for heavenly things in which I cannot.  I am reminded of John 15:3-4 Jesus says, “Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself unless it abides in the vine, so neither can you unless you abide in Me. 5"I am the vine, you are the branches; he who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing.”


I am discovering that without the breath of God my human words are stale and empty.  The affirmation of people becomes fragile and brittle.  So I declare today that I am nothing without Jesus… and I need to re-learn this daily. I want all other voices to fade, and may the voice of the King reign in my life. May it reign in yours’. 



One Response to “Seductive Success”

  1. Christiana Rice April 15, 2011 at 1:24 am #

    It was an honor to be there with you, DD. Thanks for sharing your honest heart in this reflection.

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